BUT! I'm so close. And when the sonographer was measuring my follicles last time I spotted one and said:
is it you?
In my head of course, but I wonder that. Are you him? Are you her? Will you end up in my arms? Last time seeing follicles and hearing of sperm was all so technical. But now that I have Jonah, and I see what this *stuff* really produces, it's mind blowing. I am STARING at what could end up being my CHILD. She is MEASURING and poking and prodding what could be my daughter or son! Weirdness abounds, but it's appreciated.
I just took my final shots. Well, before the big HCG shot tomorrow night. But it felt good to throw the last one in the sharps container. Ok, that's it I said. One more tomorrow night at trigger and we're done with injections completely!
I do have a boat ton of vaginal suppositories that I will be placing in my vag 3 times daily that will leak out of me like some kind of offputting science experiment but that's for another post!
Tomorrow is day 10 of stims. I'm going in for an ultrasound and more bloodwork. This is how it went in 2008. And a second post when I realized I'd be triggering that night.
2.5 days until we conceive Life.
Half of me and Half of M will come together and grow.
7.5 days until we attempt to rejoin he or she back to its home in my womb.
Will it park it for nine more months? We shall see.
